A couple of years ago I had a dream in which I kill myself. In the split second of me leaving my body I remember and understand everything about life our reason for being here my body my challenges my tests my life and regret my act to the degree of panic!
I beg gd to let me come back. I beg and cry and scream and swear to never feel bad or upset Just to give me another chance no one even found my body yet just let me come back !!!!
He doesnt want to but eventually does. The second he sais yes I wake up in a panic. I cant move my body or open my eyes for a few minutes and the second that I am able to move in bed I know to look at my clock as I read somewhere that when you want to keep a dream diary always look at the time when you wake up. And something was pushing me to look at the clock. It took a while to be able to turn my body but I did and grabbed my phone to look at the time. It was 04:18 my Birthdate!!! (The 18th of April. )
Ever since then… when I ever I look at the time and its 18:04 (as Im not usually up at 04:18) I remember this dream and I remember what it came to tell me.
I was upset today and at 18:04 I happen to see the time and remember that everything until this very second is dead! gone and buried, and 18:05 is a new chance and a new perspective for everything.
it has to be.